Sometimes I wish I could fly away...

Dear Blogspot,

For the few months that we've been living with my mom's boyfriend I have had NO behavior problems. So now it's Spring Break, and my friend asked me to come over her house. So I ask my mom and she says "No, we have Spring Cleaning Monday and Tuesday ask her if she can have you come Wednesday". So I tell her that my friend said this is the only time this week she'll be available. So she says no. So I ask can we switch the dates of Spring Cleaning, but NOO it's apart her stupid schedule for this week. And then she says I can start now and tells me to clean the ceiling fan and some plants. So Mr. Nobodywastalkingtohim goes "She is giving you a way out, nobody ever wants to just take the way out". Finally I walk in my room and put my headphones on and start doing the dishes. Now I'll admit the 1st time I was talking under my breath, but I wasn't intentionally slamming any dishes. But She Witch assumes I am and while I am turned around (w/ my headphones on) she pulls them off and is fussing at me. And 1st off I really hate when i don't know why am in trouble. She claims I'm a "demon" ect. And I truly am fed up. So she takes my phone and headphones, gives them back and sends me to my room w/o me doing my chores. So I am sitting on the computer trying to blow off steam. I swear sometimes I really disdain them. It is the constant bull crap. Like my baby brothers having to wake up at 6 and go to bed at 8. Ok sounds reasonable right , wrong. They were being woken up by me everyday and they wanted them to have their chores done before they went to school. But sometimes there isn't enough time, so somehow they've turned it into this dictating of the time they do ANYTHING. The worst part is my mom's bf is the dictator, and she just agrees with everything he does. We have no say. That's why sometimes I wish I could fly away..............


-SoDone

GODISMYWITNESS

Whatever, i just dont care.

Blogspot!

 I don't have time to catch you up on the good parts of my year, but I can tell you now there were many. Today I would like to discuss my unappreciative, disrespectful, bigheaded, excuses of little brothers.

Ok so the youngest is just a mess. He can't keep things in order and he challenges me like He can catch these hands. Now I try so hard to be nice, or ignore him, but he doesn't know how to mind his own business so there is no point either way. I am just so annoyed with him. Yea, he has his sweetheart moments, and then he has his working my nerves moments (75%) time.

The other one is the one that ticked me off. Ok so I wake up and make breakfast and I 'm telling the boys "Get ready for school" and he catches this nasty little attitude. OK , so for starters , it wasn't like I was not telling him to do the right thing. Next he needs to learn that I AM his OLDER sister, and I dont care if our 7 thousand feet tall , I am NOT scared of you, and the only reason I didn't clean off is because mama is sick and told us to shut up. He thinks he's the baddest m'f'a in the area and it irks me. He needs to step down and stop being so cocky before I knock Him down. God is my witness I try so hard to tolerate this boy!!

I love my brothers but to be honest, they are all butts. In there on way they can make my life hell. And I try to get over it or look over it, but one of these days! Ugh, I pray to God, my last few years in this house aren't stressful! 

Annoyed the Crap Out of,

Muah!

What the Devil?

Dear Blogspot,

Sometimes I can REALLY dislike my mother. Like everyone has their mother daughter quarrels but i have seriously had it with her! Ok so I have given my mother about notice about a homecoming game and dance right? And I tell her I need money for the dance and the game. So she agrees that I can go to the dance with my friends while she's at the big event at Jack's workplace. She complained saying "Everybody is always doing something when I want us to do something" because Jack and I weren't going. So now apparently Jack is going, and she all of a sudden says "I said you were going the event with us (uhh no you didn't!) and I'm not arguing about it". So you gave me the money, I bought the tickets, and then you go back on your word and say you never said I could go!! Wow, she is so messed up sometimes. So now my bff is gonna be all deserted at the dance and i've wasted money buying a ticket that apparently, I DIDN'T NEED! But oh,no baby ima fight for going to this dance, she aint gonna control my life forever!!!

Sincerely MAD!

-Melodie

Pissed Off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I swear sometimes my family can be the most illogical people I have ever met!

Ok so first off , I am trying to be nice to Munchkin and defend him, by telling Mac to just clean the tub and take a bath since it was his week, but no Mac wants to gets all hot headed and caused a huge mess.

Myles always cleans up the tub after others on his bathroom week, so why should Mac do any different??

So I try to explain it to my mother and she gets all "Ok here's my way ; whoever week it is will clean up the restroom, but individuals clean up the bathtub after themselves".

Now that makes since, but it is NOT fair on Munchkins behalf. Mac has never dont what he suppose to do exact, so why is she being all lenient with him? I mean it's obvious that Mac just doesnt want to clean up!!
 

But whatever, it's stupid. If Myles wont fight for himself and let Mac run him over whatever, that's on him. And I am so sick of them calling me the "Mother Figure" , because I tell them to do the right thing. Or today  Me and Beth waited at the middle school for the practice to end and they were in the locker room having us wait for like 10 or 15 minutes. And have the nerve to be pissed at me for confronting them about it. Um, maybe next time you can shut up get dressed and leave like the OTHER BOYS!! I am so sick of crap coming from these boys.

So bump it, I am doing my thing. I'm not gonna tell them what is right or wrong or butt in. I have had it with always trying to neutralize the problems.....I am gonna do me, and only offer assistance when asked or needed. I have had it trying to get along with my family -_-

I am going through my anti social teenager stage. No more of the drama. Just school, friends, chill and answer mama. Everything else can wait. I dont have time for crap.

Currently Annoyed,

-GodIsMyWitness <3 

I don't understand.

Dear Blogspot,

Life can be so complicated. I am just so sick of school and it's only the first week. I enjoy all of my friends but all the AP and PAP classes can be a load of work. And to top it all I wake at 5 or 5:30 every single week day -_- , I never get a break! My mom gets stressed during the school year and kinda acts like a hormonal pregnant chick. And i understand work is stress, but snapping at me about  EVERY single thing can really suck. I mean i wake up the same time you do, go through about 8 hours of school like you, work my butt off, get tired and go home, eat and clean the kitchen by MYSELF. So yes sometimes blogspot i wish she'd give me credit for being a super girl, because i am.

My youngest brother is such a brat sometimes. I love him so much , but he thinks that he is ALWAYS right. 

And that is so annoying. If Mom puts me in charge , why is it so hard to obey? I mean i am fair about everything. And he can throw the biggest temper tantrum. 

My other younger brother grows up so fast. I mean he is already taller than me and has a better phone than me, and gets to do the extra curricular activities he wants to do. Me? No. Everything I want just doesnt correspond with me or my moms schedral.

Being a child of a single parent is hard. It kinda sucks. 


But I try to stay positive. I am excited because my 16th birthday is coming! But the birthday I want may not be what my mother wants for me. I just want one day, just one were i can wear a sash and tiara and show others , that today is my day. But life is not a fairytale. And reality is like a slap in the face. God is my witness, i will be a better person and be successful. I have a future ahead and NOTHING and NO ONE will stop me from attaining it.

No i don't understand. I don't know why life is so stressful sometimes, but I will survive , I always do.


God is My Witness

ReadyToGrowUp.

Hypocrites

The school year is over and it's summer. So why am i not excited? Simple. My mother and Jack are HYPOCRITES ! They drive me CRAZY but I still love them. UGH!!! Today blogspot (since i threw away my diary because my family is majorly nosy) , you are my diary.  Ok soo..


Dear BlogSpot, 


My family can drive me crazy sometimes. Mother, Brat#1, and Brat#2 plus Jack is....ridiculous! I mean Brat#1 is angry with everyone in the house because he got caught sneaking cereal! You snuck it so it is your fault! And Brat#2 UGHHHH! He can be sooo sweet and snap into diablo when someone/something doesn't go his way. And mother oh. gosh. I mean she tries her hardest to support us and i completely understand that. But that is no reason for YOU to be a hypocrite ! I mean you know when you are in the wrong yet you blame me and point fingers. Or when i decide to bring drink in my room (Which is in a water bottle) you get pissed off even though you brought a normal cup in your room and put it on the wood stand when you know Jack doesn't like it. All im saying is cut me some slack here. I have worked so hard, and unlike alot of girls in high school , I am actually there to get a dang education so I can have a better life, because even though you provide mother, you and father didn't give me the dream experience in life. So stop being a hypocrite to me, cus' i am a GOOD GIRL!! :D


--God is my witness




PS: We will make it in life family, I know we will <3

GREAT DAY WITH WAP

Well i had an AWESOME time at Dr.D's house today. Me, Bethani, and Brooke talked and hadd an awesome time. I just discovered Hannah's hair is curly (lols). We watched Madea and observed (Adorable) Steve from a distance lol. Ummm i just love my break soo far. Well i'm enjoyin time with my big bro and i watched a movie with EVAN ROSS (FINNNNEEEE SELF) and it was really great! Im just giving thanks to God because i have a better life than lots of people and i have the most awesome God given friends ever, LOVE YOU ALL!!

-LONG LIVE THE TRIO <3
Mel <3